There are things in my life that I don’t understand but have to accept. I have a lot of questions in my mind–why did that happen? Why did he/she leave? Why can’t that happen to me? Etc.
At times, I forget them. Thank goodness I’m busy and thank goodness I at least feel I’ve grown up on matters like this. But still, at times, when those questions haunt me and yield no answer, it hurts, literally and figuratively. I feel my heart skipping a beat or thumping or having a hard time to breathe. I couldn’t complain. I am blessed. I am blessed. I know I have more than what I really need for. Isn’t it?
It’s easy to throw words like, ‘things happen for a reason’ and ‘everything will be ok’. I do believe in those. But, I also do feel doubtful on them at times. I don’t want to be stuck on my why’s. It’ll refrain me from appreciating what I have and being happy. And I don’t want to be stuck worrying and fearing if things would really be better and if things I dream could really happen.
This is now. I have to work on my now. I have to accept, appreciate, and see the beauty of my now. Everything about my now. Besides, it’s all I have. The past is gone. The future is uncertain. And it’ll be my lost of I would be eaten by my past and future. I to trust that everything has a perfect time. No need to rush. No need to envy. Just hush. Be patient. Have faith. Keep moving forward.
Just hush.
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